The Blue Box: Deep Down In My Mind

Deep Down In My Mind

First, he wanted to get away from me with an unexcuseable excuse

I let him go

Second, he ignored me

I let him ignore

Third, he acted like he didn't like me anymore

I let him act

Fourth, he told me he did it because he didn't want to destroy our relationship

I let myself believe him

Fifth, he wanted me to forgive him

I let myself forgive him

Sixth, he wanted to fake our relationship

I let him fake it

Seventh, he wanted me to ignore him

I let myself ignore him

Eighth, he wanted to discard my givings

I let him to decide

Ninth, he wanted me to lie to everyone

I let myself lie except to my friends and my family

Tenth, he laughed with everyone other than me

I let myself forgive him

Eleventh, I discovered I've been hurt

I let myself be hurt

Twelveth, I recognized that i love him

I laughed at myself

Thirteenth, I had a nightmare about him

I'm uncertain now

I've decided what will I do to him. I want him to care for me like he used to. But that was then, and then is true. If he had left me, I would have let him. Like I always do. Probably he is not my destined. After all, there are a lot of boys out there who would cared for me more than he did. Everybody wants me, not only you wants me.